#the human experience. emotions. the humanness of it all

[noperopesaredope]

#not a shitpost #when i say 'not to be anti-religious' i quite literally mean #'not to open myself up to attack for criticizing not just christianity but also other religions beyond christianity and western familiarity #... BUT' #anyways other religions aren't benign or 'exotic' or 'exciting' or 'enlightening' just because you personally #weren't raised in a society entangled and altered and grappling with their inextricable sociopolitical influence #anyways yeah the original post was christian-centric (bc that's where my firsthand religious trauma comes from) #but the additions were written very much with other major world religions in mind #westerners forget: there are actually other MAJOR world religions in existence #and by major i mean large powerful and yes potentially quite harmful. like with most major power structures #this will shock and amaze you but many MANY human beings deal with annoying ridiculous awful religious oppression.... #and that religion is not always christianity! because western experiences are not universal! #if you've never heard someone raised (for instance) in an Egyptian conservative muslim family go on a RANT... #... it's educational! they have a lot to complain about!!! #ANYWAY. #just because it's not your oppression doesn't mean it's not oppression. end rant #posts I'm going to lose followers for... #no wait im not done yet: to me religion is similar to a business or government #no it's not *innately* harmful. but it IS a power structure #and therefore highly vulnerable to abuse/misuse if preventative measure aren't taken as it grows #and the fact that it's promoting specific worldviews...the very basis on which we build our understanding of the world and morality... #and that it's so wrapped up in human emotions and spiritually...that makes everything more delicate. and individuals more vulnerable. #so yeah i think religion owes a duty of care to its members to acknowledge this and actively work to protect the communities it influences. #and yeah kids especially! hence this post <- OP's tags

I remember taking a World Religions class in high school, and one thing that stuck with me from it was my professor saying "There's no such thing as a 'peaceful' religion, nor are any religions inherently violent."

It was kind of a wake up call to learn about both the good and the bad of various religions and how they can have harmful power structures, like with Hinduism having a harmful caste system and, as someone else pointed out in the replies, Buddhism being just as open to corruption and hate as any other religion. We learned about how there are some corrupt Buddhist monks and things like the Rohingya Genocide in Myanmar, where Buddhism was used as a weapon to violently slaughter a Muslim ethnic group.

There are many religions I have looked into due to personal exploration, and almost all of them have flaws and ways they can be weaponized against people. I now believe that there are no religions that are more "inherently wrong" than others, just ones that have been more openly weaponized. It is dangerous to maintain the belief that only some religions can be harmful, or that some religions are more dangerous than others on a base level.

not to be anti-religious but i do wonder if teaching children that they are innately flawed and sinful is, perhaps, not a healthy worldvi

[syscest]

wait, does everybody really not wish they were plural? I just kinda always thought that and like talking to yourself all the time (but out loud and not auditory hallucinations so its normal) and only being able to access certain emotions sometimes and then feeling them overwhelmingly, and like having multiple names that you switch between at any given time were just standard parts of the human experience, and being plural meant you had to like lose large swathes of memory and wake up in the middle of situations and events

(grown adult woman just now realizing this)

[inbarfink]

Okay this is such a tiny easy-to-miss character beat but I just absolutely love how after already hearing about how Arthur Cantabella has constructed a whole made-up fantasy world cut-off from time and logic for his daughter to live in and upgraded from paying people to play-along in his LARPs to creating a town-sized Secret Government Brainwashing Experiment and invented like five new kinds of human rights violations… the point where Phoenix is just so shocked and says it’s ‘going too far’… is when he finds out that Arthur had suppressed and altered Espella’s memories of her childhood best friend.

I mean, it is kinda ridiculous but… I think it also makes perfect sense because Phoenix is a ridiculous kinda guy and even if he is intellectually aware that all of the things Arthur Cantabella has already told him are Extremely Fucked Up - it fits so well with Phoenix's character that this is what sets him off on an emotional, instinctual level. I can’t think of anything more personally, viscerally unsettling for Phoenix Wright - the man whose entire life and sense of identity is built on his memories of his own childhood best friends. 

[theonlyqualitytrash]

The irony of Fyodor's words:

These words have always stuck with me when I started to reread the manga, especially with the recent chapters and Fyodor's behavior. He says something deeply philosophical, but also deeply ironic.

In the anime, he says:

“People are eager to believe that they are acting with free will. That they know best. They become so excited by their own discoveries that they give them too much value. We all loathe to believe we can be controlled.” (Season 3, Episode 4, 17:35)

And in the manga:

"People, honestly, simply, wrongly assume that 'I thought so myself.'" (Vol. 10, Ch. 42, Page 35)

At first glance, these two quotes seem to say something very similar—that people tend to overvalue their own thoughts and discoveries, believing them to be entirely their own, when in reality, they might be influenced by something (or someone) else. But here's where the irony kicks in: Fyodor himself embodies this very mindset.

Despite his belief that people are wrong to assume their thoughts are independent, Fyodor operates under the assumption that his philosophy is entirely his own. In truth, it’s shaped by a lifetime of suffering, trauma, and a near-obsessive need to control the world around him.

Fyodor’s theory—that all ability users should be eradicated—is rooted in his own experiences of feeling powerless and out of control. The abuse he’s endured, combined with his ability, has led him to view the world—and its "free will"—as fundamentally flawed. He believes that to restore order to this chaotic world, the gifted must be suppressed. Yet, isn't this philosophy itself an example of the very thing he criticizes in others? His conviction that he has discovered the "truth" mirrors the self-deception he critiques: the tendency to believe that his thoughts are purely his own, unaffected by external forces, including his trauma.

In a way, Fyodor is trapped in the very mindset he warns against: the idea that his conclusions are logical and independent, when they are actually the product of his suffering, his obsession with control, and his refusal to accept the chaos of human nature. His belief that he’s arrived at the ultimate truth—that ability users must be eradicated to prevent chaos—reflects the same misguided, self-affirming belief that he accuses others of having.

Fyodor, in his isolation and intellectual torment, has convinced himself that eradicating others' abilities is the only way to restore order. But this "discovery" is not a product of pure intellect. It is, instead, the result of his trauma and distorted worldview. The irony is that he has become the very thing he despises: someone who clings to his own belief as the ultimate truth, dismissing the possibility that his thoughts are shaped by his personal history, his suffering, and his need for control.

At the heart of this contradiction is Fyodor’s desperate desire for control. His philosophy isn't just intellectual; it’s emotionally driven, born of his experiences with powerlessness. In seeking to rid the world of chaos and disorder, he longs for a sense of security. But he fails to see that his quest for control is itself a response to his internalized trauma. His attempts to impose order are shaped not just by logic, but by his scars.

This leads us to the central irony: Fyodor cannot see that his belief system is flawed not because it's illogical, but because it’s emotionally driven. He claims to have transcended the emotional influence of others, yet in doing so, he becomes a prisoner of his own narrative. He cannot escape the fact that his thoughts, like those of the people he criticizes, are shaped by his fears, desires, and personal history.

Fyodor's rejection of external influence is, in the end, a perfect reflection of the flaw he exhibits: the inability to recognize that his thoughts are not independent, but deeply shaped by a lifetime of suffering and a need for control. He believes that he has arrived at the ultimate truth through intellectual reasoning, but in reality, his philosophy is just as much a product of his internal struggles as anyone else’s beliefs.

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk :>

[animeyanderelover]

Request: Can I have Hc's of Kaneki with a darling that has regenerative abilities but is not a ghoul and was just recently kidnapped so they don't have the highest opinion of him or ghouls in general?

Tw: Yandere themes, possessive behavior, obsession, delusional tendencies, paranoia, abduction, isolation, darling has had bad experiences with ghouls in the past, some gore

Tags: @flaming-vulpix

Darling with regenerative abilities

🔲​An abduction in general is a more nerve-racking experience for Kaneki than it might just be for darling. It is always fueled with paranoia and irrational fright though, the deep-rooted fear of losing you to someone, be it human or ghoul. There are certain scenarios where there will be more paranoia involved than normally and I believe that with a darling with such special abilities it will be such a case where there will be even more fear apparent than under already very suffocating circumstances. For you see, someone like you would surely be desired by both humans and ghouls for your special abilities. For ghouls you might just be a never-ending source of food for as long as you breathe and for the ghoul investigators and the Commission of Counter Ghoul you might just be a solution to the casualities if they were to figure out on a biological level how your abilities function. Threats are now then ever from possibly both sides and it is this terrifying knowledge that pushes Kaneki quicker than already over the edge. He does not want you to be a food source nor a science project and finds himself with no other choice but to take you himself.

🔲​Weighted down with very little opinions of himself and already expecting you to not have a very high opinion of someone like him, the despair is nevertheless there and unstoppable when you give him the cold shoulder after your abduction. A paradox if emotions that should not exist clash within him. On the one hand he recoils whenever he listens to his own obsessive thoughts, disgusted by himself. Then in the next moment he wishes so dearly to touch you and to receive the affection that he hasn't experienced in years. He loves you but at the same time he is too ashamed to face you and let you see just how pathetic he really is. After all you are right in your hatred, he has ruined your life to prevent one of many horrific scenarios in his head. Still, his presence is always lurking as he watches you whilst you are stuck in his apartment. Admiring, loving, worshipping from a distance where he believes he won't be of any burden or annoyance to you. He cannot be too far away though as if physical distance is harming him. The emotional distance between him and you is already so severe after all, at least let him keep some strings of sanity intact.

🔲​You reveal to him a few weeks after the abduction why you despise ghouls and by extension also him. In the past you have suffered from an attack by a ghoul who left you on the brink of death with mutiliated limbs. If it wouldn't have been for your regenerative abilities you would have never survived yet the process of regeneration was long and was painful. For weeks you had to lock yourself in your apartment, isolated to hide your secret and wait for the day until you had recovered. A story that does nothing but add to his paranoia as one of his fears is proven. You were already attacked by a ghoul. You already suffered by the hands of one side. Even though he is only a half-ghoul, even though he has nothing to do with it, Kaneki still feels horribly guilty and ashamed as if everything is his fault. You have a reason, a valid reason, for your disgust and low opinion of ghouls. Yet still he craves deep down to have you understand that he has only the best intentions in mind for you only to be met with that horrible knowledge that he keeps you locked up. The following weeks will be difficult for him as he struggles with his feelings and thoughts. A breakdown is bound to happen.

[fallingrealms16]

CAITVI FIC REC LIST PART 2 (???) <3333

MUAHAHAHAHA I’m baaaaaack ;)

Gonna keep this personal note quick:

Here is the wonderful part 2 out of Violyn fanfics, only the best of the best that I have read! Lots of stories + another note at the end, make sure you read that to not miss any upcoming content <3

Reminder‼️ pretty please read all the tags on each fic before reading as I am not responsible for any emotional trauma you may experience ^3^ (more notes at the bottom ty, ily <3)

NOW let’s get cracka lackin🤚🏼

While you’re down there, being a doll by Greed

4.8K Words // Chapters: 1/1 // 2K Hits // COMPLETED

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“But I don’t need to be there to know that your panties are soaked right now," Vi said, her voice sending a thrill down Caitlyn's spine. "Go ahead, tell me I'm right."

You’re Mine Now by YourSinfulScribe

10K Words // Chapters: 4/4 // 5.8K Hits // COMPLETED?

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Vi is an astute and expert smuggler, and although she has not had the best of luck lately, she has always known how to make good decisions that have helped her survive.

However, ignoring rumors and advice, she enters a mansion that, although it seems ordinary at first glance, hides something that Vi could never have imagined.

Vampire Cait x Human Vi

Coming home to you by mkhhhx

20K Words // Chapters: 1/1 // 14K Hits // COMPLETED

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“You are not taking good enough care of yourself,” Caitlyn starts, looking towards the fountain. She’s lost weight and her cheeks are hollowed, the knuckles of her hand too pronounced into Vi’s grasp. “I need you now, more than ever, Violet.”

“You have me,” Vi says, as a matter of fact. As if she has anyone else to live for, to give her loyalty to. “In any way you’d want me.”

this one is so broken and tentative it actually ruined me btw. Literally as I type this shite I’ve also got it open on my computer STILL reading because it’s that good—I didn’t have to finish it to recommend it

When It Rains, It Pours by SarcastCity

22K Words // Chapters: 4/4 // 23.8K Hits // COMPLETED

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Caitlyn's shower breaks, and Vi's the sexy plumber who comes out to fix the problem.

Place Your Bets by ChemistryGod

25K Words // Chapters: 6/6 // 30K Hits // COMPLETED

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Vi's an up-and-coming pro-boxer. Her first match is against former heavyweight world-champion Sevika. Vi needs the money to move up the social ladder, and with her pro-status comes better training. Caitlyn is new in town and they hit it off at a lesbian bar. Vi, however, never could have guessed that their jobs would put their newfound relationship in a tight spot.

Nothing Personal, It’s Just Business by second_hand_feels

28K Words // Chapters: 5/5 // 10.8K Hits// COMPLETED

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“Not gonna lie,” the smooth voice announces down the alleyway, “whatever you’re doing, it looks hot as hell.”

Caitlyn just freezes, taking a moment to assess the situation. Gaze flicking up to the voice, it’s the woman, one of Demarco’s enforcers, standing at the mouth of the alleyway and fuck.

Fuck for so many reasons. Notably, she can’t be fucking this up this quick, but also, fuck, she’s just so hot.

Catvi Undercover Cop/Mafia AU

P.S. extra bonus one shot fix it fic recommendation <3

Sweet, like a cupcake by aniyahsheree

2.7K Words // Chapters: 1/1 // 1K Hits // COMPLETED

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Vi pulled back slightly, her lips quirked into a playful grin. "Told you," she murmured, brushing a stray strand of hair from Caitlyn's face, "you're sweet—like a cupcake"

Next one will be slightly longer fics…like 28K words+ ✅ but jumps to more than 55K words+ very quickly!

Pretty plsssss send in recs too! I’m always looking for stuff to read and also recommend for others so if you know of a good fic send it in <33

MUAHAHA OKAY NOW IM DONE ‼️

[muletia]

the mention of Obsessed! Predaking in one of your posts about Shockwave has been rotating in my head like a rotisserie chicken,,,, his breeding kink would be to big it could compete with Megatron's my golly god,,,,

[𝐭𝐟𝐩] 𝐨𝐛𝐬𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝!𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐝𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐱 𝐡𝐮𝐦𝐚𝐧!𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

headcanons

cw: obsession, possessiveness, jealousy, valveplug/sexual content, mention of body harm (marking you), manipulation (you manipulate predaking), breeding king, dub-con (not nsfw)

word count: 800

an: was freestyling the whole thing and it probably shows but y'all don't understand how much I crave feral characters

He is not a thoughtless, barbaric beast. Has proven time and time again that he transcends such measures, that he is more complex and multidimensional. His ambitions surpass primitive instincts; he is made up of many different facets. Before he met you, he made every effort to present himself to others as proud, powerful, and cut from the same fabric as the rest of the Cybertronians. Yet his pride crumbles in an instant when he forms a deeper bond with you, revealing primitive, predatory needs. He succumbs to them easily, and they quickly become his entire world, haunting him whether you are near or far. To feel, to experience, smell and touch. His body craves you at every hour of the solar cycle, and then his processor is left battered, defiled by desire, consumed by the need for physical closeness that claws at him from within, demanding release. All he lacks is patience and restraint; once he has had a taste, no force in the universe can take you from him.

Predaking might maintain honor among the Decepticons, but when you come into view, insatiability displaces dignity. Jealous of every living being, he refuses to let anyone get close to you. Like an agitated dog, his optics constantly scan the surroundings for potential threats—or worse, rivals. His primitive, wild side emerges, and in his need to protect his chosen mate, he does not forgive even a lingering glance, paranoid about every gesture and word. The simplest conversation becomes a challenge for you, as it sets off growling, smoke escaping his mouth, and ultimately ends with him nibbling at your neck, biting your skin to leave an unmistakable mark of his emotional state. Your autonomy has come at the cost of your untouchability.

By unofficially naming you Predaqueen, he intends to show everyone that you are taken. That you already belong. Your body becomes a canvas for bite marks, pinched skin from fangs that could so easily kill you, pierce too deeply, and sever an artery. Yet despite his wildness, he can show tenderness, never torturing you for too long or too harshly. When blood appears, he meticulously licks the wound, purring apologies that reveal his hidden morality and gentleness, though they are not entirely trustworthy.

He clings to you without respite, demanding physical contact. He rests his head on your back to share warmth, further enhanced by the flame that escapes his throat on command. He knows he is crushing you, pinning you down to the point where you struggle to breathe freely, but he wants you to stay with him. For your familiar scent to always surround him, calming him when he needs it, keeping him grounded. Soft, delicate skin caresses hard metal, stroking him after he impresses you; equally fascinated by his biology as he is by yours. It’s easy to lose yourself then, letting your thoughts drift into dangerous, erotic waters. They are deceptive but enticing, and Predaking does not deny himself pleasure within the bounds of morality.

+18 content / valveplug

Interfacing perfectly reflects his nature. It is wild and sharp, focused on pleasure, but reproduction is at the forefront. The primitive need, well-known to both humans and him, becomes undeniable when you first let him in, letting him feel how soft and slick a human can be. Something clicks in his processor. He is extraordinarily fortunate that the first valve he has ever tasted belongs to you, for he wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world.

Compatibility on such an intimate level raises the question of extending the species. Is it possible? Were you really so similar? Overwhelmed by your scent, your softness, and the bliss he experiences, he concludes that if his spike so effortlessly slides into your core, it couldn’t be otherwise.

Knowing his needs, you can easily control him. Convincing him that if he wants offspring, he must follow your commands; otherwise, nothing will come of it. You hold the leash on a wild, unpredictable creature so fixated on you that he is willing to submit, to please you, even as his processor drowns in his own needs. To adapt to you, to the pace you set, to the position you choose.

However, there are certain actions he undertakes reluctantly. He won’t refuse, but he will make it clear that he is focused on one thing: breeding. He’ll give you pleasure, savoring the taste of human ecstasy or letting you explore him, popping a cherry in his valve. But the end is always the same: he strives for a sparkling, naively believing it is possible, that it can be done. And perhaps it’s better that he believes. For when he hugs you to his chassis and shares his warmth, babbling about what a wonderful mate you are, the entire charade feels worth it.

[theshiftingwitch]

How can u go to a marvel/fiction dr this dosent make sense

Reality shifting:

✨ The breakdown ✨

Although it became popular on TikTok in 2020 thanks to Dracotok and the Great Harry Potter resurgence, reality shifting is an ancient spiritual practice.

Through thousands of years, people of different cultures, beliefs, religions, and backgrounds practiced reality shifting in different forms and for different reasons.

The practice gained traction in recent years however due to the new found popularity of the multiverse theory.

What is the multiverse theory?

It is a concept that came to life through some areas of physics and philosophy and it suggests that our universe with all of its planets, all of its stars, all of its black and white holes, all of its creatures and laws and movement, may in fact not be the only universe in existence. It brings up the possibility of other universes existing parallel to ours, vibrating at a slightly different frequency that we are not able to see it currently.

See: inflation theory, the "many worlds" interpretation in quantum mechanics, the string theory...

But how do we prove that this is all real?

Well, the only way to prove that shifting is real is to try it. And thankfully there are hundreds if not thousands of shifters who are thoroughly documenting their journeys online and talking about their experiences in great detail.

And how does that mean you can shift to fictional worlds like marvel universe for example?

Well, if we take into consideration that there are infinite realities, and within those infinite realities there are infinite possibilities, and those infinite possibilities mean that no two realities are exactly the same, it would stand to reason to believe that one reality's "fictional worlds" are another reality's real worlds.

What is simply a movie or a book or a TV show in this reality, is another world's actual people, creatures, and events. If magic doesn't exist in this reality, it can very well exist in another reality. If vampires aren't real in this reality, they can very well be real in another reality. If you are merely a human in this reality, you shift your awareness to another reality in which you are a werewolf, an angel, a demon, a wizard, a cat, a butterfly, a horse, a rock, a cloud in the sky...

How do you do that?

You become aware of the fact that you are simply pure consciousness. You are not your body, you are not your mind, you are not your thoughts, you are not your feelings, you are not your circumstances, and this reality is not the only one in existence. It is simply the only one you are currently aware of. You expand your awareness, you tune into other realities like you're tuning into a radio frequency, and suddenly you are in another world with other people experiencing another life in a different body with different thoughts and different emotions.

Lastly, I would like you to consider this:

we are on a floating rock that is millions of years old, in an infinite universe that is somehow expanding into more infiniteness, with more galaxies than we can even begin to count. There are more stars in the sky than there are numbers, there are more galaxies than there are humans, and we keep discovering more and more and more as time goes by. Is it truly that hard to believe that this reality may not be the only one?

[iamblue15]

Sonic Movie 3 Spoilers!

Despite Maria's illness and Gerald's creating Shadow not being included in the film, I still loved they portrayed her and Shadow's relationship. He's lost in an unknown world with no recollection of where he came from or what he even is. And the fact he's treated as a potentially dangerous entity by most of GUN makes his experience in the lab all the more isolating. Maria's love and companionship (and supposedly Gerald's at the time) was something Shadow desperately needed and makes his path of revenge incredibly justified. Him attacking Tom and seeing Sonic in panic about his wellbeing became his tipping point in questioning his actions. In letting his emotions drive him, he felt there was no other choice but to make humanity pay for his pain. In his talk on the Moon with Sonic, this line is what got me the most:

Shadow: Does the pain ever go away?

Sonic: No.

Sonic was in pain about Longclaw's death but he didn't let that control him and he stopped himself in finishing Shadow when he was fueled with anger over his adoptive father's injury, stating "this isn't who I am".

Shadow's story in this movie is pretty much a "what if" version if Sonic was found by GUN and treated the same way he was. Sonic even says "if it weren't for you (Tom and Friends) I probably would've been a much different hedgehog." Then it cuts to Shadow walking in the rain in downtown Tokyo, alone in a different time.

[t-allyitup]

core traits

edd:

dark trait is manipulation (hear me out) i really do think one of edd's biggest dark area traits is that he ultimately wants everyone to get along to the point of destruction, i did post about this a bit ago in relation to my fic but i feel like this desire would lead him to bending his morals and sacrificing his own sanity/peace for everyone to get along. i feel like he could easily go down the road of either 1. manipulating, blackmailing, etc etc people into staying on good terms/keeping the peace or 2. letting himself get walked all over or used or something in order to keep tension at a stasis point

as for light traits definitely his humanism, he genuinely cares about his friends and people on the cul de sac and in multiple episodes despite his participation (and sometimes masterminding) the scams he tends to prioritize safety and comfort initially, even if the sentiment is lost during the actual scam

grey traits in my opinion would be his unquestioning loyalty/blindness to failure in authority figures (his parents mainly, this isn't necessarily a bad thing it can just become very stressful and dangerous) and obsessive/compulsive nature (can be a good thing when he's concerned about safety, can be a bad thing when it drives him to be controlling (containing vs restraining))

ed:

ed's dark trait is spitefulness. hear me out! again! ed rarely shows negative emotion outside of sadness, but when he does get angry or upset, he tends to get that way as a reaction to the behavior of others. he went back and forth with double d calling him "stinky hat" when double d wanted to take his cheese, and when he got that rock in his shoe he tried to annihilate eddy because eddy was fed up and insulting him. ed reacts out of spite, not always, but it's a pretty clear trait.

light trait is his acceptance of others and openness to experience, which combine with each other well. he has a broad emotional pool and is seen "communicating" (acting responsively) to plank in a few episodes. he is validating of his friend's choices and participates in their scams/activities

grey area is his response to change. he clearly harbors some kind of difficulties with this, just various comments throughout the show and some inferences shows that he seems uncomfortable with it (cheese episode again but he would not let go of that mf)

eddy:

dark traits with eddy is a where do i even start situation. he shows lots of the qualities of machiavellianism, egoism, self interest, and spitefullness. i think in my opinion his trait is self interest. i think eddy does feel bad about what he does to the other cul de sac kids but self interest is his obsessive desire and he has a massive preoccupation with his need to fit in/feel seen so self interest is the one.

light trait is, as you probably guessed, his charisma. it is one of his most magnetic qualities and occasionally the only redeeming quality about him in general. he is compelling and direct in his approaches, genuine or not, and he channels his charisma effectively even if he uses it for evil sometimes

grey area would have to be his seeming emotional detachment from things. could lean to psychopathy, could lean to a trauma-informed response to his situations in the past. either way it creates a lower level of empathy but a higher level of protection for himself so maybe it's a grey area trait

[baitpaintsbadly]

"The Thallax were specialised, cybernetically-augmented shock troops manufactured and principally used by the Ordo Reductor of the ancient Mechanicum. The particular augmentations undergone by one of the Thallax are both severe and extreme, retaining only the brain (and in many cases the skull and spinal column), the life-sustaining viscera and nervous system as the basis of the articulated and armoured robotic frame which encompasses it. Other principal features of the design included a high-energy compact reactor system (whose emanations could not be endured by a less augmented organic system), allowing for extremely potent portable weaponry to be utilised, embedded Incunabulan Jet-Pack systems and arcane implanted sensory apparatus operating outside the usual realm of organic perception.

The sinister blank-faced helms of the Thalaxii conceal an array of inhuman sensory apparati through which they experience the battlefield as a raging storm of electromagnetic turmoil, blood-heat and seismic percussion. However, for the organic brain to handle this hurricane of data, it must be surgically mutilated, removing the mere Human senses such as sight and hearing. The unfortunate side-effects of these systems on the living components, however, were continuous agony and psychotic breakdown; effects ameliorated by the surgical excision of some of the brain's emotional centres. For some within the Mechanicum this transformation of the Human mind skirted the edge of abomination such as that posed by sentient "Abominable Intelligence"

The resulting machine-creature is capable of far greater tactical flexibility and independent action than a mere combat servitor, although terminal deterioration of the subject's psyche was certain over extended periods of time."

The 6 Thallax from the HH Mechanicum box, which I will be using as Kataphron Breachers in 40k. These lads are my favourite unit from the Mechanicum range, both in looks and lore and I forever hope and wish they get legend-ed in to 40k (never happening I know, but a trooper can dream). I shoved them onto some 60mm bases to avoid any "modeling for advantage" accusations and I'm pleasantly surprised by how ok they look on the larger base size, I was worried they'd look a bit weedy but I think they fill the space well (though I am very biased). They have some really cool extra gun options, with the Phased Plasma Fusil's, Photon Thrusters and Multi-Melta's, but not enough to fill a whole squad with. I dont want to muddy the proxy waters any further than I am already, so they're all getting the same, still very cool, Lightning Guns that I can pretend are Heavy Arc Rifles. So I'll keep the fancy ones for future kitbashing. Pic with Skit for Scale under the cut.

Also, hello to my Dark Heresy players, sorry that this is how you find out what that one character actually is, try not to worry too much about it :) .

[dnangelic]

bitterly , he obeys --- his lips tightly shut and twist , his hands balling into clenched fists at his sides as his stare pierces through the other . each lament and despair feels like the heavy slam of an iron mace ; ritsuka staggers away , broken-legged , while the thief's own hollow heart bruises and aches .

why couldn't ritsuka understand ? what would it take to get him to understand ? that sometimes suffering was just suffering , that its so-called meaninglessness was a symptom rather than its own sole hurt , and that what others could call "natural" wasn't always right . the pace of his breaths quickens , and his heart slams against its heavy , shut doors . his own voice , be it out of a simmering fury or tapering shock , trembles a little . ' is that all --- ? ' grit , grimace . ' you're trying to make yourself an exception even though you just called yourself ordinary ? in a place like this ? in a place where even i exist ? ' here , in chaldea , the saints and devils and martyrs . the mortal and immortal , the ancient and the unborn , newborn , never-born ; the simple , the incomprehensible , the hideous and the beautiful , and at every center , the mundane master meant to experience and guide their stories anew . like this , ritsuka had always been a necessity , and beyond even that , a friend . a desire .

how could the other not have mattered ?

' even those emotions , ' no matter just how ugly , ' become undeniable proof that you're here . do you really think you've never suffered even as you're forcing yourself to suffer right now ? when did trying to help others turn into giving yourself up along with it ? ' a kindness rotting out from the inside --- he plucks it , tosses its rind elsewhere and out of his thoughts . ' if you want to keep lying to me and yourself , then fine . do whatever you want . but the reality is , there isn't a single thing in this world that's born with any sort of meaning . that goes for you and me both . '

eternity was eternity . suffering was just suffering . humans were only just human , and things were just things . ' ... the only thing that can change that is someone's heart and feelings . if mine aren't enough for you , ' for just a moment , his expression contorts with a deep and intense hurt , ' then there's nothing i can do . '

ㅤㅤFOR a split second, Ritsuka's expression had faltered, his mask slipping and what was revealed was his desperate, pathetic expression as Dark had forcefully torn the two apart, rejecting the master's tender illusion with the intent to smash that glass wall into pieces.

ㅤㅤHe stumbled back, prepared to accept the loss of their shared warmth and go about as normal but Dark had caught him, forcing Ritsuka to confront the reality of his words.

ㅤㅤAn overwhelming sense of dread suddenly consumed him and a sinking feeling twisted in his gut. His breaths quickened, pounding in his chest. He couldn't breathe. He felt like he was about to break down. He felt like he was about to die from the anxiety of being so exposed and so laid utterly bare before one of the many people he desperately didn't want to be perceived by.

ㅤㅤCornered, Ritsuka found himself rejecting the other in kind, teeth gritting and harshly ripping Dark's hand away from his side, eyes ablaze with anguished tears.

ㅤㅤ" Shut the hell up !!! "

ㅤㅤAh, there it was. His true self.

ㅤㅤ" I told you I was fine, wasn't I ?! " His voice was breaking, nearly on the verge of transforming into sobs. " I get it ... I get it ! I'm ... a coward ! I'm nothing but a hypocrite ! I have no good reason why I should feel the way I do but ... I can't help it ! But that's why ... there's no point in saying any of this when my stupid, meaningless insecurities are worth nothing in the grand scheme of things ! " He staggered backwards, clutching at one side of his face as he desperately fought the urge to break down. Even with all these words spilling out, there was still so much he had left unsaid. " Why should I say anything when there's so many people who've suffered far worse than me ... ? At the very least, if I help them ... I can be of some use, can't I ? " Even now, he still had the audacity to wear a smile on his lips, no matter how desperate and broken it appeared. " ... So what does it matter ? Why does it even matter to you ? I came from a place where I didn't know what it was like to suffer at all so isn't it only natural I keep my mouth ? To hold it all in and pretend it's all okay because ... it doesn't matter. In the end, Fujimaru Ritsuka has always been an ordinary person, barely clinging onto an identity that can only exist because of the people around him. In the end, am I really here ? "

[wp100]

kinda sad how much people will defend ai to the ends of the earth

like you really want robots to create art? the very thing you rely on as an escape that us humans have made since forever? sounds really miserable and dull

[gentlenotes-moved]

"you're flawless!" "you're perfect!" or!!!!!! maybe you're a little flawed. maybe you've fucked up. maybe you're a human with scars and faults. a human who's wronged and who's been wronged. maybe you've messed up. but... maybe you're a human that deserves love and happiness and good things in life. a human that deserves to heal and to be loved because you're worth something just for being alive.

[silvermoon424]

Me when I remember how dogs were the very first domesticated animal and have evolved alongside humans for thousands of years, resulting in our two species becoming adapted to each other and able to easily communicate.

Me when I remember that humans and dogs have been around each other so much for so much time that dogs are better at reading human behavior than our closest genetic relatives (the great apes).

Me when I remember that dogs can easily understand our facial expressions and gestures, while most people are able to intuit things from a simple bark (if the dog is friendly or aggressive, big or small, nervous or excited, etc).

Me when I remember how, millennia ago, some wolves decided to hang around humans for extended periods of time and those humans thought "you know, we could make them our friends."

Me when I remember that dogs are called man's best friend for a reason.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I'm sorry I let down my guard.

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